A list...

I am going to resume blogging. There, I said it. Now maybe I'll do it. I guess I felt after my last post like I didn't have a lot I wanted to share with anyone about what was on my mind. I hit some pretty low points in the months of last winter, but now I'm seeing sunshine and bright colors again and feeling like I might continue sharing my thoughts about the world with anyone who bothers to read this (which sometimes I think might just be my husband, but that's okay too). But since I haven't done this in a while, and I really have no idea what the "identity" or "purpose" of this online voice of mine is, I'm going to just start with a list of things that are on my mind and see where that goes...

1. I love sugar. I love salt. I love fat (or at least foods that contain it). I am currently fighting quite hard not to be an emotional eater or stress eater or lazy eater and take care of myself. If I don't start doing more things right to my body that I have control of, I'm going to be really pissed at myself one day when a doctor tells me I have a preventable disease that might be life-threatening. I therefore am trying to make myself love to run as well... and hopefully that will balance out some of those first ones. So far, this endeavor is mildly successful.
2. I'm against animal testing. I'm also against child testing. And by this, I mean forcing students into desks for 4 straight hours of staring at a bubble sheet, tearing their hair out, and gnawing on pencils (that some poor counselor will have to collect later), only to prove that the kids we all know know stuff know stuff, and the ones who we all know don't know stuff don't know stuff. Isn't there a better way for teachers to teach and learners to learn? I've always been a huge supporter of public education, but Montessori is starting to sound better and better for my someday children...
3. Life changes are rough stuff. We all know bad changes are rough, but even changes that are exciting, opportunistic, and just feel right... well they're hard too! I'm leaving my career mid-June this year, and going back to school to pursue what I hope is a career field in which I can just be happier. I'm good at my job right now - great even, but I've never been happy in this career. Which makes me think two things: (a) Either I'm insane for 'giving up' and trying something totally new, or (b) I could be not great, but totally fantastic at a job that I like even a little bit more. I'm putting all my eggs in basket (b) right now, and hoping that Ryan's Godfather was right when I told him I might be crazy but I am getting my second M.Ed, and he told me "You're not crazy, crazy is not doing what you really want to do."
4. When I have two master's degrees, at least until I earn the Ph. and the D., can I get away with putting M.Ed.-squared after my name?
5. I'm a lucky, lucky girl. I need to remind myself that more and more and more and more. Even when I'm stressed at work, and tired all the time, and sad about loss, and worried about the future, I get to love and be loved everyday again and again. And that's somethin.